when life knocks you down

When Life Knocks You Down

Hello beautiful souls. I hope this post finds you doing well and feeling great! Some of you have noticed that I’ve been a little quiet the past two weeks. Ready for a long update?

Well, besides life getting super busy with a toddler hanging around all week and traveling to NYC for my birthday then Atlanta for Easter, I have had some health flare ups that have knocked me down a bit. I call them flare ups, because I believe they will only be temporary. (Although while they are happening I feel like it takes an eternity)

I am currently following my supplement protocol to eliminate parasites, toxins, and other opportunistic pathogens, which does cause occasional detox periods. I am assuming that has something to do with how I have been feeling the past two weeks. But I don’t believe it is responsible for everything.

Is That a Frog in My Throat?

Right now, I’m trying to figure out a very pesky issue happening in my lower throat (right above my clavicle and at the base of my esophagus). It feels like something is stuck there and simply won’t budge. Could it be allergies?

It has been a month and a half now of having this feeling, so I’m trying to be patient while I figure out what the heck is going on. So much of the past few months has been letting my body readjust to a new normal. So perhaps this is part of the journey too.

I don’t think it has anything to do with my supplement regimen because the symptom presented before I started the protocol. But, it hasn’t improved in a month’s time.

As a result of being HSP and having gone through everything last year (read all about it in the archives), it’s hard for me not to get preoccupied with any ‘off’ feelings my body experiences. I’m very present with how my body feels, for better or worse.

So what’s a girl to do? Well…

Back to the Doctor

After waiting for some time to see if the symptom would resolve on its own, I decided to go see an ENT. I’ve never been to this type of specialist before. He put a scope up my nose and down my throat, but preemptively told me that his scope would not be able to see where I was noting the problem. Thankfully, he could not see any signs of irritation or concern.

When in Doubt, Give Me a Prescription

Sadly, not knowing what the issue was, he quickly prescribed….you guessed it…an acid blocker for acid reflux. History repeating itself. Why, oh why, are these medications just thrown at people without knowing the root cause?! He said, “Try it for a few weeks and see if it helps.”

There it is. The band-aid.

I immediately hopped in my car, called my husband, and lamented about yet another doctor throwing pharmaceuticals at me without being able to explain why the problem was occurring. He wasn’t even sure if it was acid reflux, and yet he wanted me to expose my body to these chemicals?

Giving In to Curiosity

I was reluctant to take the medication. You know me. But another part of me wondered if maybe I did have acid reflux. This could be an experiment of sorts. I could take the medication, see how it affected my body, and then know whether the symptom was lessening as a result.

So, after lots of research on natural remedies for acid reflux (all of which I naturally incorporate into my life already), I decided to succumb to the experiment. I purchased the acid blocker. Ugh.

After taking the medication for a week and a half and dealing with really unpleasant stomach pains, I discontinued it. Why? Not only was it hurting my stomach, my symptoms were just the same. No improvement.

Next, I went to my primary care physician to see what she thought. She told me to immediately stop taking the acid blocker (shocker!) and to try a nasal steroid. Yet another medication.

I explained to her about my highly sensitive body and my preference for holistic remedies. Did she hear me? She again recommended the steroid nasal spray. My ENT did not even recommend a nasal spray after sending a scope through my sinuses and down my throat. What the heck.

I Prefer All Natural, Did You Hear Me?

Again, I stated my preference for holistic remedies and she agreed that having an ultrasound of my thyroid would be a good next step to figure out what is causing the lump-in-the-throat sensation. Perhaps a nodule on my thyroid?

Part of this is my fault. Currently, I do not have a naturopath as my primary care doctor, so I can’t fully expect my doctor to know of natural remedies that might help. I simply tried to advocate for myself in the best way I knew how.

I did go to my chiropractor to see if maybe my body was out of alignment causing something to be out of whack in my neck and throat. While my body was out of alignment, the adjustment did not alleviate the discomfort in my throat.

Growing frustrated and a little concerned, I scheduled my appointment for the ultrasound. Surely it could see if something genuinely was stuck in my esophogus. That was the hope at least!

Well, the ultrasound did not reveal anything of concern. While I was thankful, I was also growing frustrated because nothing was improving. Both the ENT and my primary care doctor ruled out allergies. They did not feel that’s what I was experiencing. So what is it!?

The Symptoms Keep Coming

So by this point, I’ve made it through March and I’m starting the month of April still with this discomfort in my throat. The way I’d describe the feeling is: something stuck in my throat, a constant headache in my throat, and the feeling that someone constantly has fingers pressed against my trachea. You can imagine the discomfort, right?

Then, something unexpected happened.

I was enjoying a beautiful birthday celebration trip my husband organized for my 40th birthday in New York City, when I started to experience intense vertigo and a tight chest. What was happening?

Again, I thought, “I’ll just wait this out. Maybe I ate something that caused my chest to constrict. Usually when this happens, it just takes a day or so to go away.” So I waited Saturday and Sunday. No improvement. Dizziness, vertigo, and a really tight chest were taking over my life!

By Monday, I woke up and was having a hard time getting a full, deep breath. I was scared. What was going on in my body? The room was spinning every few seconds, I was losing my balance from the vertigo, and things were not getting better. I chose to visit the Urgent Care center mostly because of my hard time breathing. “Is this what asthma feels like,” I wondered?

Well, as you can probably predict, the chest x-ray and blood work-ups indicated that nothing was wrong. Was I going insane? Is this completely psychosomatic?

Then the doctor explained that my EKG results on my heart were different enough that they wanted me to go to the emergency room for further testing. Ugh. Seriously!?

So, I trudged to the local hospital where I spent the day (on my husband’s birthday mind you..as if I didn’t feel lousy enough, now I felt guilt on top of it all!). Why, God, WHY!?

When life knocks you down

I shared all of my symptoms including the issue in my throat not knowing if it was somehow connected to all of this. The staff did more heart monitoring, more bloodwork, and a CT scan of my chest and bottom of my neck. Surely, they’d find something! How could they not with the way I was feeling?

Well, folks. Nothing. NOTHING. They sent me home and said, if it gets worse, come back. Otherwise, we don’t know what to tell you.

Could My Mind Be Behind All of This?

As you know from the content of this blog, I wholeheartedly believe in the mind-body-soul connection. Like, BIG TIME. I’m not afraid to consider that some of my symptoms might be psychosomatic, meaning my thoughts and emotions are causing my physical body to have ailments.

I have asked every single doctor along the way if they thought this might be going on. Every one assured me that they did not think it was psychological. The emergency room physician assured me that if it was anxiety, he would have been able to tell based on my heart rate, pulse, and other factors.

My mind was put at ease slightly, but then I started thinking about all the spiritual and emotional work I have been doing over the past few weeks. I’ve been up to a lot! Maybe it did have something to do with the shifts taking place in my body. Maybe?

Well, here I am in the middle of April, still working through my symptoms. I had two major detox episodes throughout this time, which were highly unpleasant but a necessary evil when my body needs to get rid of things.

Some symptoms still linger, mostly that dastardly feeling in my throat! Since cutting back on my supplements, the vertigo and dizziness are slowly subsiding, thankfully.

I had a sense that my body was just in a heightened state (yay for being a HSP), so I felt that slowing down on my protocol would be best to see if I could calm things down. Thus far, it seems to have helped a bit.

So What Now?

So what now, you might ask? Trust me, that’s what I’m asking myself! Right now I am giving my body time to chill. I have pulled back on the supplements by only taking a few. I continue to use an infrared sauna to sweat out the toxins to help clear my body’s pathways.

My spiritual and emotional work continues as I affirm along the way that I trust my body’s natural ability to heal and restore itself.

All I can do is hope that my symptoms subside and I am able to resume life as I was getting to know it. Just before all of this hit, I was feeling AH-MAZING and like I was finally get back to my ‘old self’. Then WHACK, knocked down.

But I know I’ll come back. I just have to be patient with myself as I go through the peaks and the valleys. Ladies who experienced breast implant illness warned me that it might take 2-3 years of detoxing periods to finally feel back to normal. I’m only 4 1/2 months out from my explant surgery, so I know I need to be a little more patient in my journey.

Of course, I will keep you posted on how I am feeling and what I’ve been up to. I just felt it was important to share my journey, as always, so you can truly know ME. Oh, and if any of you have ever experienced a similar feeling in your throat to the one I’m having, I’d love to hear about it.

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As always, be well, friends!



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