Happy New Year, friends! I am soooo ready for this new year to take off and I have a pretty good feeling that new, exciting developments are coming this way! Are you the type to set New Year’s resolutions? Generally speaking, I am not. I prefer to set monthly intentions to draw my attention to actions I want to take in my life.
So as this new year starts, I am naturally ready to write down my January intentions. I have so many hopes for this coming year. I don’t necessarily have all the details figured out on how things will unfold, but I do believe that if I ask the Universe and speak my desires, answers will arrive.
For those of you who are new to The Sensitive Soul blog, welcome! You should check out some of my previous posts in the archives, and it will give you a pretty good glimpse into what my life was like in 2018.
A Year in Review
Now, while 2018 was emotionally, physically, and mentally challenging for me, there were also some amazing highlights! Let me give you the abridged version of how the year went.
In January, I found myself at Urgent Care for unexplained stomach issues after vomiting for six hours straight. The best way to put it was that I was constantly nauseous and my stomach just “hurt” a week after my throwing up episode. I had eaten a frozen pizza that day and then four hours later, I was majorly sick. Could it have been the pizza?
I was given anti-nausea meds from the center and sent on my way without a diagnosis or explanation. Blood work didn’t show anything suspect.
But thank goodness I was released because the next week, I was off to Thailand for my honeymoon! Anti-nausea meds packed, I was ready to explore a country I had dreamed of visiting.
I give major credit to my husband for researching and planning our trip. He did an amazing job of mixing adventure with relaxation while we were there. Thailand sure did not disappoint!
I will post more about this trip next month on our one year honeymoon anniversary.
I had a few “unwell” episodes in Thailand, but for the most part, I felt pretty decent in those two weeks. We flew home and a few days later, I found myself in the emergency room with stabbing stomach pains.
The pains simply were not going away. Again, more scans and tests revealed nothing, so I was referred to a gastroenterologist.
Next, I did testing with the gastroenterologist and no major findings there either other than gastroparesis (slow stomach emptying). He was quick to prescribe acid blockers as a band-aid.
I was quickly discouraged and unsure of which way to turn. My stomach pains and nausea came and went, and all I could do was “muscle through it.”
Time for Answers
Come May, my body came to a screeching halt! I will never forget it. On the last weekend of May, I literally could not muster even an hour’s worth of energy. The fatigue that came over me was beyond debilitating. I had never experienced something like it before and I was seriously worried.
I quickly scheduled appointments with a functional medicine practitioner as well as a Lyme literate doctor in hopes that they would have answers for me.
My list of symptoms was growing by the day and my ability to carry out daily tasks was becoming a major struggle. I was scared. Very scared.
As if feeling scared wasn’t enough, the “Mom guilt” that I felt was terrible. All I wanted to do was be present and available for my son. But instead, my body just wanted to curl up in bed and sleep. It didn’t seem to matter how much sleep I got, it was never enough. Most nights, I had such interrupted sleep that I only got a few short hours of rest.
I worried about the impact my behavior would have on my son. He had to see his Mama in bed feeling sick instead of playing with him. He saw me crying, sometimes on a daily basis, because I was feeling so hopeless and lousy.
It simply wasn’t fair. He was the one giving me hugs and kisses, when it’s my job to give him those loving reassurances.
Last summer brought me several answers, I believe. I learned that I did not test positive for Lyme disease or other autoimmune disorders, but I did have many things show up through my functional medicine tests.
A parasite, candida, various environmental toxins trapped in my body, SIBO, gut dysbiosis, inflammation, and bacteria infections such as strep and staph. I only share these things in full transparency with you in hopes that if you’re feeling lousy too, consider getting a GI MAP test and an organic acids test run. It’s eye-opening!
My A-HA Moment
It was also in these months when I learned of Breast Implant Illness. In the back of my mind I had wondered if my implants should be removed after having them for 14 years, and upon finding the Breast Implant Illness and Healing by Nicole group on Facebook and the website, my suspicions seemed confirmed.
There were over 55,000 women in the Facebook group sharing their stories and almost every single one of them mirrored what I had been going through. Today, the group has grown to almost 60,000 in just a few short months more.
So many women are struggling without knowing that the implants are a part of the problem! Word is spreading though that implants are majorly disruptive and toxic for our health and I am really happy about that.
As I read story after story, I knew I had to schedule a consultation to get my implants removed properly. And so it began. I had the consult, scheduled my surgery, and prayed for the best.
But Wait, There’s More…
In the last few months of the year, I learned that I had two kinds of skin cancer: basal cell and melanoma. The melanoma one really shocked my core. I was fresh into my breast explant surgery recovery when I got the news that I had melanoma.
Thanks 2018, but I’m ready for a new, healthier year! Looking back, the year was a doozy for the most part. A real doozy. But I trust that the lessons I learned from the hardships I faced will all serve me (and others) in the long run.
All Hardship Comes With a Lesson and a Blessing
I learned that I needed to pay attention to what I was exposing my body to nutritionally, emotionally, and environmentally. As such, I made (and am still making) lifestyle changes for the better that will hopefully keep me healthy and thriving.
Throughout the year, I have discovered healing practices that have really made a difference in my life. Without going through what I went through, I don’t know if I would have ever tried an infrared sauna, for instance. I had no idea how healing it could be!
My spirituality has been tested, but I never failed to lean on my angels and my Source. I prayed A LOT this past year, and I also shared my gratitude. I was keenly aware that things could “always be worse.”
So I gave thanks for my journey and asked for guidance in the times when I simply did not understand why I was feeling the way I was.
And finally, I started this blog. In the thick of my struggle, I launched The Sensitive Soul blog. This blog has been such a light in my life. I absolutely LOVE writing and sharing what I learn with all of you.
While I will let the Universe show me the way, I truly hope that blogging can become a full-time career for me. Please help me in making this dream come true. Share this blog with your friends and family and encourage them to subscribe.
You know you’re doing something you’re passionate about when you lose track of all time while you’re doing it. For me, that happens when I’m writing. Hours could easily pass by without me noticing. And what’s more, at the end of the day, I still want to be writing! I just find tremendous joy in this creative space.
Be the Change You Wish to See in the World ~ Gandhi
I want to thank all of you for reading and watching my journey unfold over the past six months. What a year it has been!
I hope that my blog has inspired you to look after your own healing and wellness journey. I hope you can glean information that you find useful and resourceful. Ultimately, I hope you feel inspired to educate others with what you’re learning, too.
In this new year, I wish all of you the happiest, healthiest, most vibrant life possible! Be well, dear friends.