Hello friends! It’s hard to believe that Halloween is right around the corner and that Fall has fully taken hold (in the USA). The weather is cooler, the leaves are changing color and slowly starting to fall, and summer wardrobes are quickly being swapped out for warmer layers.
In my family, we are gathering all of our Halloween costume props and clothes, making Halloween cookies, and carving pumpkins. I feel like there is so much to do, but somehow not enough time! Do you ever feel like that? Nonetheless, I am embracing all the fun that this time of year offers.
Change is Upon Me
As I mentioned in previous posts, I have a lot of change happening in the near future. First, I am scheduled for breast explant surgery in the end of November.
I wish it were happening this month, honestly, but all the puzzle pieces didn’t fit together quite right, so it made more sense to delay the surgery until the end of next month. More on that in a moment…
Just Around the Corner
Also, in about two weeks, I will be having my MOHs surgery to remove the skin cancer by my eye. Because it’s so close to the tear duct, I have a follow up surgery scheduled with an ocular plastic surgeon for the following day in case I need skin grafts (let’s hope that’s not necessary!).
This surgery would be a bit more intense. I’d actually have to be put under general anesthesia. I’m not feeling too anxious about this surgery whatsoever, however, I am always a little cautious when things involve my eyes.
Not My First Rodeo
You see, I have had three eye surgeries to date. My first one was when I was an infant. I was born severely cross-eyed, so the doctor performed a surgery to correct that. Since then, I have worn glasses my whole life!
Then, when I was in sixth grade, I had another eye surgery but this one was to correct a lazy eye. Or in my case, eyes. Then, in 2002, I had my third (and final, hopefully) eye surgery to again, fix a lazy eye.
I chose to do the final surgery in 2002 because at the time, I was teaching and my students honestly didn’t know that I was calling on them to answer a question. They’d look over their shoulder or to the student next to them with a quizzical look as if to say, “Who is she calling on?”
For me, it was beyond frustrating and downright embarrassing. I needed to learn some compensatory strategies to avoid this embarrassment. I started using the student’s name as I pointed at them just as backup methods to ensure they knew who I was speaking to.
I also would turn my body sideways and look at them from the side because it was only in this eye position that there wasn’t any confusion. You can see how this would be quite frustrating on a daily basis, right? I was self-aware and self-conscious to say the least.
So my third and final surgery was ridiculously painful (I will spare you the gory details), but it corrected the problem enough that I don’t think I’ll elect for another surgery.
My eyes are far from perfect, but I am grateful for the improvements that have come from it. I am still self-conscious about my eyes because I can feel the muscular struggle every day.
I Bet You Didn’t Know
What most people don’t know about me is that I don’t have binocular vision. What does that mean? It means that my eyes do not work together, so I am constantly switching the focus from one eye to the other.
Ultimately, my optic nerve did not fuse properly at birth, so my eyes do not work together. My muscles are weak and get fatigued very easily. So, while I am in conversation with someone, I will often look away then back again due to eye exhaustion. Interesting, right?
People probably think I’m hearing voices and looking off to respond to them…haha. NOT THE CASE I CAN ASSURE YOU.
So given my sordid history of eye issues, having anything close to or related to my eye scares me a little bit. I just want everything to go well, and I know it will. But now you can understand my caution a bit more.
My hope is that they are able to successfully get the skin cancer in one attempt, and that I will not need a follow up surgery. While the doctors assure me that wounds near the eye actually heal quickly and rather easily, you know I’m going to look a mess initially (or like a pirate with a classy patch over one eye…arrrr!).
So between the skin surgery and then the breast explant surgery in November, I am going to be healing for a good while. What excites me is that the toxic bags in my chest will be out and real, full healing can begin.
I am going to write an entire post dedicated to just breast implants in the coming week or so, so stay tuned. There is SOOOO much to write about!
As far as my symptoms go, these past six to seven months have been such a struggle for me, but I am proud that I have managed to get through each and every day. Some days are easy, others are beyond hard.
At one point in my supplement regimen, I thought, “Things aren’t improving, they’re getting worse!” And it’s true, they were feeling worse. My body ached more than it ever had, my dizzy spells were literally throwing me for a loop, the fluttering in my ear was driving me bonkers, my fingers were tingling like crazy, and my fatigue was at an all time high.
The Turning Point
It wasn’t until around week six of my supplement regimen that I noticed improvement.
This was six weeks into my protocol and two weeks into using the infrared sauna. What I learned is that my body was “herxing”. Herxing was my body’s reaction to killing off bacteria and other viruses that were in me.
There was MAJOR detox happening. My supplements were working! Want to know what I was afflicted with? Check out this previous post.
Often the term herxing is used in Lyme disease patients because the spirochetes are being killed off causing endotoxins to circulate throughout the body instigating a whole-body inflammatory reaction.
While I don’t have Lyme, the same reaction was happening in my body. My body revved up again to fight the battle it has been trying to fight for some time and ultimately it felt LOUSY while at war.
The intensification of my symptoms was concerning to say the least. At the time, I didn’t understand what was happening. I just thought I was getting worse. The reality was actually a sign that the therapy was working!
Sweating in the sauna not only amplified the process, it helped it too. The more I could rid my body of the dead bacteria, viruses, and toxins, the better. Drinking tons of water was another MUST to get me through this horrendous period. Flush it out baby. FLUSH. IT. OUT.
So Where Am I Today?
So that brings me to today. I’m not symptom-free by any means, but I am improved. My multiple-day migraines are still a menacing force to be reckoned with, unfortunately. My fatigue comes and goes although I have more energy now than I did two months ago.
Some new symptoms have surfaced in relation to my implants. Ultimately, every day is different. It seems like I have “flare-ups” of symptoms from time to time, but at least it’s not chronic the way it was.
Long story short, my functional medicine practitioner helped me A LOT! His protocol worked very well and while it won’t heal everything while these toxic breast implants are inside of me, it certainly put me on a path to better wellness and healing.
His advice for getting a Berkey water filter, using a sauna, and shifting to a chemical-free environment have also been instrumental in my healing.
The Healing Continues
Now, once the implants are out, more detoxing HAS to be done to rid my tissues of heavy metals, bacteria, and other “nasties” that are by-products.
There is a great likelihood that I will feel like crap again after my surgery as my body releases more crud from my system and finds its way back to its natural state. It’s a journey, that’s for sure!
Like I said, in future posts, I will be discussing implants and all the “unknown” facts and dangers about them that most people have NO CLUE about. I know I didn’t! Knowledge is power, so let’s get educated!
I will also be discussing the shifts I have made towards a chemical-free environment. So much learning is happening and it’s EXCITING. I can’t wait to share it with you.
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